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"Out of the Shadows" (Greenhill) Day shawn brightly, and their was a light breeze. A morning like this could get many birds singing, and many students laughing and cheering. Well it was different, for Lotte that is. Days like this would force her to break out into the giggles and would cause her to wanting to do something dreadfully stupid. Crouching down inside a deep ravine. Those angry cries dies quickly, why he can't be seen. So many ways spent hiding in so many undone plans Forgetting what it's like to fight when no one understands... Lotte awaken in her tiny bed; her windows were blown shut due to the night winds. She hopped out of her bed and walked over to the windows. It's different... So different... Pushing the windows open ever so slowly, Lotte gazed outside to see the students carrying on as normal. Smiling, laughing, enjoying themselves. Lotte looked at them as gods, gods without cares and with so much freedom. Lotte was caged, she was feared. After Ayame passed on, students lunged well away from Lotte, thinking she'd attack them. Depressed... God... Why did he curse me? Am I not human? Close call there in the shadows. There's no end to the dark. There's no one out there Calls of happiness rained outside, spinning... faster, like a vortex. Why can't I be happy? Why does Ayame haunt me? She was my only friend but now... I'm alone The window wasn't much help. But Lotte couldn't take her eyes away from all the students. How happy they were. Lotte wanted to be one of them. She really did. But she would never be one of them. I can't force myself... I wish she would leave me be. All closed feelings pain and anger flood back one by one. The must be just around the bend they always come. At night as I lay sleeping may come to me in then. Their lives remain, there dreams the same it's only fleeting words Life was wasting. How could this happen, the world takes one innocent girl, and then gives another girl pains or torturer. It didn't make sense. Am I... Am I alone? Does the world even have a damn clue if I even live or die? I doubt it... Anger hid beneath Lotte's fair skin. It was waiting, she could tell, to once again appear and take over. Holding it in. Holding it till it breaks free. Lotte backed off the window, and walked over to wooden bookcase. She glared at it, for a few moments. Anger burned inside her, the fury waiting to be released. "Dammit! Why?! Can't she stop this madness!" Lotte screamed as she ripped book off the shelf. She'd pull them off the shelf, and rabidly rip the pages out of each book. Close call there in the shadows. There's no end to the dark.
'Cause there's no one out there no but me...
With pages ripped on the floor and open books were torn to shreds, Lotte fell to her knees. Crying her heart out in the middle of the pile. She began to sob emotionally; slamming her fist onto the cold floor. Fresh tears though themselves on top of the torn pages, soaking into random places. "Why of all people did it have to be me!? Why couldn't she have bothered someone else!" Lotte sobbed "Why, oh why me!" Rising up the night is done and now the bright lights come. Held back in my pitied world where everythings undone. A cold wind blows right though me it made a hollow shell. There's nothing left just ash remains enrich the soil, no soil, no soil Lotte hung her head in shame. She hung it so that no one would ever have to see a face of depression. A face of pure sadness. She had lost a friend who was like no other. She had a smile that would wipe the darkness away from your eyes. She was just one in a million, or at least to Lotte. Slowly, Lotte got up from the floor and rubbed her eyes. Her cheeks were flushed red and she was all worked up. She was breathing heavy; her eyes were blood shot, and she felt numb. She couldn't feel her toes of her fingers. Lotte could hardly move them. Finally she clasped on Ayame's old bed; staring around the room. Someone calls there in the shadows. There's no end to the dark.
'I'm here Lotte...' What...? I'm here... Can't you see me? "I can... But I can't fight it..." "Lotte... Why do you blame me for this?" a voice echoed "Your taring yourself apart over my death, you need to stop." Have I been cursed...? "Don't you see, if you stay here you'll no longer be yourself, you'll be killing yourself, blaming yourself, Lotte listen to me...Get Out of here..." the voice beckoned "NOW!" Lotte stood her ground. "Don't you understand! I don't have a place I can go... I'm an outcast who has no one... So leave me be!" The voice sighed, but sounded angered "Lotte do as I say!" Lotte's flushed eyes blinked "...no I- I can't..." "Why can't you?" "Please..." Lotte trembled "Wh- Why do you h-haunt me?" "Lotte I want the best for you... I want you to leave this place, and to stop working yourself up over the loss of me. There isn't any need for it." Lotte sighed. " I guess... b-but..." Runaway... Just Runaway... "It's gone..." Someone calls there in the shadows. There's no end to the dark.
Lotte stood on her feet. Motionless. Ayame's words had a rare meaning of 'Runaway'. I just can't do it... There isn't a way out for me...
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